the Renegade Goddess

It had been a long day…it was the first full day of the conference….and then my session with Max right after dinner….and while I was all tied up with Max, (OMG those red shiny ropes) …the conference was holding an evening of Salsa Dancing….it was still going when I was complete with my session.
I was […]

“Let’s go back to the room….perhaps I will beat you a little bit….before dinner” He smiles and chuckles at me….
Hmmm……..Yes…….Yes…….Yes…….
We walk back to our room….and we both hit the showers….there was something intimate and so intentional…showering and dressing for each other….in such close proximity…instead of simply showing up….ready for Him…..it made me bashful.
I showered first…and […]

I have been fascinated with ropes since I took the Power, Surrender and Intimacy workshop through The Body Electric School with Alex Jade and Al Waddel almost two years ago now….but I have had little opportunity to explore it.  And the memory of breast bondage has been vivid in my memory……so when I heard that […]

I haven’t talked about Zan in a while…
For those of you that are new readers….Zan was my first Sacred Intimate…the first man that ever touched my body outside of my husband…..at the time I do not know who was more frightened….him or me….as I was his first female client….but not his last.
I worked with Zan […]

So….DK wrote me a very loving letter yesterday……he told me that he really can’t help me with my struggle in how best to communicate my desires and requests to him….as it is a “Bottom thing”….and he is a Top…..he thought that perhaps I should speak with other fully surrendered Bottoms that negotiate communication issues with […]

Yes…I read blogs too….and even though I have a blog roll…..there are new ones too….so let me fill you in….and update this….and turn you on to some wonderful voices…..
I have been reading Ex Courtesan In Transition Again….and once in a while I even hear from Gillette…and when I do….it makes me very happy….she always has […]

So…I am still here.
And some clarification about yesterday’s post…some of you took me literally….the bad “Tops” I was talking about were not play partners…or potential play partners…I was using “Tops” as a metaphor for other people in my life who I actually have to work with!
My professional life has been exhausting….and I am raw from […]

Do you ever “watch” yourself as you do things? Sometimes I do. And sometimes I even write about myself and my experiences while I am having them….in my head…like some weird outer body narrator. I try to actually stop that when I catch myself doing this…I wonder if it is a protective mechanism from being […]

He comes up behind me….and his arms circle my body. I just let my weight go….and I lean into Him….it feels so good for him to carry me. Hold me. Support me. I trust him not to drop me….my breath leaves my body in one long delicious exhale. And we stand just like that….He turns […]

So…Oprah has her list of favorite things….why can’t I?
Right now…here are some assorted things that make smile…and turn me on……
This slide show of Folsom always puts a smile on my face……brings back memories and makes me very, very happy.
Yesterday…I received an email from Ray Stubbs letting me know about a clip from Betty Dodson that was […]