In The Middle of The Night…..
I am home…it is after Thanksgiving….I am asleep…..I had gone to bed ahead of Devon…my body is wanting DK….I wonder if I truly can live like this….I fall asleep with my hands between my own legs….just holding myself….my own bare flesh….
And then I feel the weight of Him….He is heavy and surrounding me….I can feel the cells in my body open….like a plant receiving water after a long hot day…..Oh drink! Drink! Drink! Drink! An unexpected rainfall! Rejoice!!!!
And then my body realizes that it is not Him…..and my body feels tricked and shuts down…the disappointment in my flesh is one of despair….and yes…grief….as my husband releases his hug….and falls asleep beside me…..
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